Woodwork, in response

We care because we are human. We want to be recognized but at the same time we want to be invisible. Or at least thats how I feel, and I think sometimes you might feel the same way.
As for the girls on his page, things like that are depressing, but there is one thing that I can almost guarantee that you have and those girls dont- SUBSTANCE. It might not seem like it, but eventually we all want some sort of substance, well, unless we are creepy people who want to control the world and with the exception of our roommates maybe, I think most of the people we are around will eventually want substance.
I understand, I get it, it sucks. And yet it is life, and it will go on.
I mean you have seen me when the Saint says hi, its the highlight of my MONTH! But honestly its those first "hi"'s and "hey"'s and things like that, which WE might see as awkward, but eventually they will be less thrilling, less heart consuming, and maybe, hopefully, real conversations will come.
I replay that "whats up Jess" over and over and over. And honestly what I realize the more I play it, is maybe he doesnt think I'm creepy- I know that everyone tells me that I am not, but I still have that insecurity- maybe he sees me as a person, sure maybe sometimes an overzealous fan, but a person nonetheless. And hopefully with my new found involvement with the team and other things, maybe, hopefully by the end of the year I might be able to have an ACTUAL conversation with him. I mean why didnt I answer the "whats up" part of his greeting? Because he said "Jess" and that trumped EVERYTHING else. My mind went blank except for the flashing of "Jess"!
Bottom line, though we see the rest of the world, the smaller, better looking girls of the world with these guys that we are so hung up on, it doesnt mean that we are out of the game. We just have to learn to assert ourselves. To not run away, and maybe the sun will shine on us!
So, heres to hoping for the sun to come out, tomorrow! HAHA. :) Hang in there, we will make it.