Stress

It takes over your life and leaves you feeling constricted, frustrated and "ohmygodican'tbreathe-where'sapaperbag!?"-panicking. I hate stress and even more than that is the guilt I get when I neglect things I should do while trying to de-stress. I have these moments and clarity where I'm like 'this is what i need to be doing and if I start now I can get it done and be done with it', but then I get distracted and then i panick and the guilt of not doing whatever it was, studying, hanging with friends, working and whatnot gets me so wound up that I end up throwing myself into the neglected task and neglecting everything else!

I can't speak for everyone, but I am pretty sure that most people feel this way from time to time, especially students. And i write about this now because I haven't even been able to enjoy my spring break for worrying about the projects I left at school over the break. like the welding i didn't finish because the welder ran out of wire and therefore stopped working, and even though veronica was nice enough to go on an adventure to harbor freight to get more wire[and we ran into Dan!! :] who gave me a funny look when i tried to ask if this was the right type of wire i was buying....] I decided to go to greek and lunch and then pack partially and then went to ceramics and then finish packing and by the time I had finished cleaning and all, it was time to go so i didn't weld what I needed to. and how I need a paperclay recipe, but can't find a decently detailed one online without being asked for a credit card number and mailing address. meh.
I just feel like i am not working hard enough or just plain enough and at the same time I work more than I want and more than is good for my stress levels.
I just needed to vent. And to state once again that having pets in the dorms might make them smellier, but it would lead to more happy students and less stressed out students.
and dogs are pretty.

I should go to bed now, i have work to do tomorrow.